Tuesday, July 11, 2006!
it's 7:21 pm now
i've lost e last glimpse of hope..
faith, no more.
i failed my bio, the sub that i studied the most.
i failed not because i don't know how to do.
i failed cos the keywords werent there.
i failed all my 3 subs.
to my mum, fail = you din study at all.
i called and told her that i failed my exams.
i din want to hide from her.
to what i've expected,
she blamed me for not studying,
for playing all this while.
just because that whenever she calls, im playing.
and whenever im studying, she din call.
i need a break, a break for the tight schedule.
i played, cos i wanted to relax before i start on my work.
but she seems to overlook all this things.
the paper was hard. but to her, others can make it, y cant i?
the reason was simple.
cos im not them.
doesnt i wan to secure a place in the uni?
doesnt i wan to further my studies in order not to let my parents down?
they jus dun understand.
they think the education system was like what was it in their teens.
they assume.
i explained. but to no avail.
im reali stressed up.
i've lost my motivation.
i reali wan to study.
or mayb, im not the jc material.
i love you mummy.
and sorry for letting you down.