Sunday, September 25, 2005!
it's 1:46 am now
u had my love.
u chose to leave.
it ended up this way.
5 days to promos. or in fact 4.
look. it's 5 days. not 5 months. not 5 years. and this sarks.
whrever i may end up at. i will accept it..
decided to apply for vet courses at temasek poly if i ever got retain..
which is like 50%? ha.
y vet u may ask. haha.
i will say.. at least animals arent tat vicious as humans.
well. been trying to study these few days.
but i jus cant concentrate.
went alot of places to study. coffee bean. block 11. mac.
but it seems to be fruitless.
cant seems to find a place tat i can study in. tat's sickening lar.
im jus weird. haha.
i cant study in quiet places.
i will certainly fall aslp. mac is still e best.
but i dun like the food. haha.
i told u. im jus weird. =X
went sch today. for chem. jus for a few pathetic qn. haha.
but at least im thankful to my chem teacher who made e effort go thru tys qn wif us.
she still bothers to teach a pathetic chem student like me. ha.
had no place in mind to go aft my chem.
tat's the most bothering thought i will ever had.
its brain-straining.
i've no whr to go. not HOME definitely.
im a lone kid.
standing alone in the centre of the world. ha.
but decided to return to sec sch.
though im super reluctant.
i jus doesnt wan to go back. i had my reasons.
sch was holding some stupid fun fair which is super pathetic.
all the stalls were like cramped together.
hello.
the sch is big. y jus cant they spread out. -.-
mayb they jus wan to feel the sense of 'CLOSENESS' or 'TOGETHERNESS'.
ha. sarcastic.
the entire sch is weird.
or perhaps im feeling weird.
everything. everyone had become a stranger.
i felt like a thorn among the roses. i cant believe it.
i spent 4 yrs of my life there.
and im jus gone for 9 months.
and everything changed.
ya everything can change over the nite.
yes OVER THE NIGHT. a major change.
not to say 9 months. move on.
it seems so long.
and i jus cant kick my bad habits away - eating 13 packets of mcdonalds sauces.
woo. amazing?
lol. 13 packets for 6 nuggets and fries.
i think i can jus drown myself in sauces.
or die of watever poison.
haha! wat a saddist.
things jus seems to go against me.
watever it is. you are still ard.
went jy hse quite late. cos sm wanted to scan her beloved photo which had a very super duper cute boy in it.
ha she claimed it. =X
it was eleven plus.
late for her but early for me.
lol cos she's scared of the dark! haha.
since i got nth to do. i sent her home.
wow. wait a moment.
sounds weird rite? ha. i sent her home.
or rather..
i wan to spend some time alone.
to reminisce the past.
to recollect my memories.
im alright anyway.
imjustme
tryingtountietheknot
withinmysoul
onetwothreefourfivesix.
and still counting.
life is like painting a picture.
u give a red crayon to a kid.
he demands for more colours.
u give the same red crayon to a artist.
he can paint out beautiful pictures.
u give the same red crayon to me.
i will jus break it.
cos it cant paint a black and white picture.
fortunately. frens brought colours to my painting.
turning all black and white sections into colours of the rainbow.
thanks for being there.
thanks for being with me.
frenship is all that matters.
well to jy. sorry for all my bad-mooding these few days. im reali ok. and doesnt wan to affect ur studies too. so i try not to tag along when u go study. i think i will distract u lar. doesnt wan to drag u down wif me.. now i cant save myself le. so i hav to help u. hahaa. good luck for ur promos k.. mus score well ok..
